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|Saturday, March 8th, 2014|
|Monday, March 3rd, 2014|
Doing a dist-upgrade
Be back later, if everything goes well.
|More snow, more job searching
We still have a foot of snow on the ground. Then, freezing rain fell, freezing on contact with the snow, covering our pretty snow with a hard icy layer. Tomorrow, and the next day, and the next day, there is going to be snow mixed with sleet. It will not be fun. It will be soupy and messy.
In other news, my job search continues. Most of the jobs I have been applying for are "pool" jobs: applications for term-by-term, contract positions. Because they institutions I am applying for don't even know if they will need teachers, they often don't review those applications until before a term starts. And if I don't get contacted back, I don't know if it is because my application wasn't looked at, or whether it was looked at and failed. I am not particularly happy with this entire system. But at least some of these are pretty easy to finish, and in a way, they are a type of reconnaissance: if I don't get any feedback on this, the entire community college idea might be foregone in favor of...I don't know. Going to teach English in Taiwan? But it is still early March, and I am proceeding apace for 2014.
|Friday, February 28th, 2014|
|Even more snow
Well, that is a surprising and exciting subject line!
February has been very snowy. About a week ago, we got a foot or so of snow, which isn't that unusual. What is unusual is that it didn't really melt, even though it is late in the season and we are starting to get a lot of high daylight. Then, last night, it started snowing again. Small flakes, with a lot of wind pushing them. According to weather.com, it has been 2 inches, but it seems more like four. At a certain point, it is hard to keep track. There is a lot of snow. There will be another week of snow. I am inside, feeling pretty bored.
|Wednesday, February 26th, 2014|
|It is has been snowy for a while
It has been snowy for a while here.
Been getting a little bit of cabin fever.
Here is a picture of some snow:
More updates on the progress of the year, soon.
|Saturday, February 22nd, 2014|
|Thing you might not know about me:
Thing you might not know about me, or might not believe is quite the "thing" that it is for me.
I really, really hate losing things and sometimes losing a small, unimportant and trivial object can throw me into behavior that is close to obsessive-compulsive. And not like colloquially obsessive-compulsive, like I am seriously doing irrational things that I don't want to do because the missing thing bothers me so much.
Today I couldn't find my sunglasses. I looked around for the pockets that they go into, and for the usually places around the house, like windowsills, that they end up. When I couldn't find them there, I spent another...hour or so... opening and closing drawers, sometimes half a dozen times, seeing if I had put them somewhere. I then went to the grocery store and looked in their lost and found. I then took my bike on the route of a walk I took two days ago, seeing if I dropped them by the side of the road. Nothing.
I am still flustered about this. These are one dollar sunglasses that I have had for a month, and that have no special value for me. And yet, I just feel wrong
when I reach in my pockets and they aren't there.
I think part of it is that I like to think that I am the same person day in and day out. But something as small as missing sunglasses reminds me that I am not. Matthew of three days ago had these sunglasses, Matthew of right now does not. However small of a wedge it is, it is something that separates my timestream into a before and after.
|Thursday, February 13th, 2014|
|Most of the snow melted
We had a few days here, mostly this weekend when things were "snowlocked", when the snow was deep enough and unmelted even on the roads that getting everywhere was prohibitively difficult. Just in the past two or three days, there has been warmer temperatures during the day, and a lot of rain, and things are looking clearer. Of course, they are very slushy and its not exactly shorts and a t-shirt weather yet.
I've been back two weeks and two days, so far. A lot of stuff has popped up in that time. I'm not quite up to where I want to be as far as GOALS go, but I am not doing badly. I remember in 2012, the year that I finally got a job, I made a goal in March or so that I would have applied to 5 jobs by the end of March. It is now halfway through February and I have already done that much applying. Of course, it is not up to what I imagined I would be doing, which is literally a job application a day. But, you know.
Sometimes I think I should be getting lonely here but I am really not.
|Monday, February 10th, 2014|
A lot of snow on the ground... Eight inches to a foot. And more snow coming tonight.
Not really a problem, besides I want more carbs.
Posted via m.livejournal.com.
|Saturday, February 8th, 2014|
|Talons of Weng-Chiang:
So I've finally gotten up to the Talons of Weng-Chiang in my Doctor Who viewing. I was kind of dreading it because I had heard it was so racist.
But I don't have to worry about it being racist. It isn't racist. There is no way that something this terrible could be racist. Its so bad that any negative messages are swallowed up in how terrible it is. I am just going to watch it pretending that everyone involved was trying to make the worst story possible. Its pretty entertaining, in that regard.
|Sunday, February 2nd, 2014|
|Okay, so what now?
Before I got home, I thought that once I was back in Montana I would have a nice time relaxing for a while. You know, ruminate on all my fun adventures and then enjoy the big empty scenery and free time and drink some tea and have some long hot baths and fix myself some burritos and be as happy as two bugs in a peapod.
Only I am already feeling like "What now?" and a little bit of anxiety. Maybe not even anxiety, just antsyness. I am supposed to be doing something, and it isn't just being in Montana and reading books (no matter how worthwhile of books they are).
You know the thing about taking "Baby Steps"? I sometimes believe that, but not right now. If I take "Baby steps", I will still be here and unemployed when I am 40. I gotta set a schedule and take... "GIANT STEPS". Which so far means, having been back 5 days, that I have applied to one job and am working on a second job application. :)
|My Portland life is not a "Portland" life
Last entry, when I said I was going home, man_of_snows
asked me what Portland life is like. Or words to that effect.
The thing about my time in Portland is it really isn't Portland as some people might think of Portland. I did not at any point in my trip ride a Tall Bike naked. I was going to say that I didn't even go to Powell's, but I did go to Powell's once, but I didn't buy anything.
One thing is that I was staying with my dad, who lives not just in Vancouver, but on the other side of Vancouver: around Vancouver Mall, for those who are "Smooth to the Couve". So to get to Portland, I have to take a bus to the north side of Portland, and then take the MAX downtown or wherever. At my father's house, I stay in his attic garret, which is pretty small. I am not complaining about any of this, I actually like it, but my average day there was usually just getting up, going to the grocery store, and then maybe visiting the local library or shopping for things I can't get here. Like, basically, visiting the Dollar Tree for fun.
Of course, I did get a lot of chances to go over to Portland and see people there, and I did get to see a lot of my friends and just walk around Portland. At times, just being in Portland reminded me of some of the great days of my life. At other times, I was just like "I am so sick of waiting for this bus!"
|Tuesday, January 28th, 2014|
The last 24 hours involved a lot of rushing, but here I am at home. And everything is in one piece, more or less. Actually, with the "more". And for a few moments or a few hours, this house will seem strange. And until I snap back into place, together with the relief and tea, there is a feeling of "what next"?
|Spokane Greyhound Station
After 12 hours of travel, I find myself most of the way to my destination. In 12 more hours, I should be home. Or almost.
I have so far slept maybe an hour on the bus. Getting shuffled off so they could service the bus was not my preferred 5 AM experience, but for some reason I don't mind terribly. Maybe it is the rhythmic whirl of the escalator I am sitting next to.
Posted via m.livejournal.com.
|Sunday, January 26th, 2014|
Hello and goodbye!
After an unexpectedly long time here in Vancouver (I got here on the 19th of December and am leaving on the 27th of January) I am going home tomorrow, a trip that will take me at least 24 hours in all. Somewhat stressful of a thing, running around so much, and losing sleep and being cramped up on the Greyhound bus, etc.
I am glad of everything I got to see and do on this trip, and sorry about things and people that I couldn't get to. But this is not a race.
This trip has been succesful in so many ways, which I will detail over the coming week or so.
|Saturday, January 25th, 2014|
|Wednesday, January 22nd, 2014|
|My fears proved unfounded
Before I left on this trip, I wrote that the thing I was afraid of the most was that I would put out all this energy, work so hard, and it would just be a grind without rewards.
That has been disproved, for me.
I have discovered things that make not only the present and the future better, but that explain a lot of the past to me.
Strangely enough, it came about in a way very much like what Proust described once: the texture of the ground underneath my feet and I started thinking about things, and...
Well, I would describe more but I am on a library computer.
|Saturday, January 18th, 2014|
Today, I went to Portlandstuck. I was a little trepidatious because I am getting beyond the age where I should be hanging around teenagers. Wait, I've been beyond that age for ten years. The point is though I didn't quite know if it was my scene. But despite a few awkward moments, I actually had a lot of fun.
Posted via m.livejournal.com.
|Friday, January 17th, 2014|
|Oh, and a second thought: how much do you learn from this?
So this is a question for my readers, one I was thinking of yesterday:
I know that I know some of you in real life, and some of you online for such a long time that it is "better than real". And some of you are merely stopping by on the internet. Some of you read closely, some of you...read casually.
So here is the question: does following my LJ let you learn more about me? Do you get a developed sense of what is going on here? Or are my haphazard updates filled with mundane details just a whir that goes in one eye and out the other? And is there a way I can write so my life makes more sense?
|One thing about "living here"
Is that I don't feel the need to go out and do things every day.
But I am today! Going over to Portland! Gonna see people! Eat food! Maybe buy books, although hopefully not too many!